Have i grown stronger?
This question whirled continuosly in my head today.
Well, confession...
hehe, i didn't go work today because of this swollen eye... =/
Everyone who saw it, even my mum commented that its the punishment of looking at too many guys.
LOL.
But i thought to myself, can't it be because i was peeping at too many girls? =P
Tears flow continuosly today and i almost couldn't understand the actual reason that caused that.
I've sent a message to Mr E.
Probably that was the reason?
Stated clearly to him that i wanna break every single contact with him, including all his friends, im never gonna appear before any them again. Reason because, it is relatively disturbing to receive any information of him or anyone from the group.
There was lots of relieve, somehow, it felt a lot better. Probably, this had been what i always wanted all these while but just lacked the guts to do so.
Good Fabbie replied today and asked how am i. Told her the exact same things i told Mr E. Im ok i guess, but i want my things back.
I never felt this way of myself over this 24 and a 1/2 years of my life. Probably it was just me self consoling myself but this voice in my head spoke in repitition, "it's all for the better"
Those days, i would have hid myself and sink into depression, but this time, somehow, i managed to face it, almost totally.
Out of all these silly stuffs, i'm half happy still. Heeee..
I was surprised with myself with one hit on my piano and i played the full song of Jay Zhou's movie: Secret - 不能说的秘密 classical format ley ;P
Rushing through this bloggy today, cuz i wanna wish everyone
Current Mood: Calm
Current Music: Sun Yan Zi - 我怀念的
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