Heart's Strength Level?

I used to hate this track...

Talked to a friend this morning and it is making wonder about many things suddenly.
Is it that I've turned cold? Have i defied my heart about how she's feeling?

Woke up just with a pondering mind and decided im gonna blog it down.

I was affected somehow last nite, or rather saturday morning when i saw him walk pass me. Couldn't decide the reason of feeling that way. If it was because of still having certain feelings for him? or Was i having pity for the relationship on how good we could possibly be, even as friends.

Shared this incident to my friend and he commented that is is definitely because i still have feelings for him. I thought a little about what he had said and i wonder if it was really that simple? Have i made it complex purposefully?

This is what he knows but i did not share with him about how i felt on another incident. I wonder if my heart had moved unknowingly for another. I described vaguely about some incidents that happened recently with 2 friends and he insist that i should find out about the answers. I chose to decline.

I'm afraid of losing these friendships now, these people who were there for me and me being there for them when we are down, being so good together. What if i lose them? I know i would definitely regret.

Is this the reason why im not reacting properly to certain actions they potrayed? It had been ringing in me since these actions started. Have i stopped feeling? or Am i just defensive now?


Cant blog further.. chain of thoughts keep breaking because my brother wants his com back..
zzz..

I should get my connectinon soon.



Current Mood: Sleepy
Current Song: Kelly Clarkson - Because of you