True as the statement says...
i wonder hard sometimes, why would anyone in this world hurt another?
unconsiously, purposefully.. ?
Accidentally, i fell into it again. Knowing the consequences of it, yet i still chose to let it manipulate me... Silly huh?
It would be nice if there was at least a proper reaction back, but i know it well in me, the possibility is close to zero.
"What is the reason of you saying and doing all these to me?
Another fool's game? or You really meant what you've said?"
Whatever that had happened, just cast this feeling on me. Seems i've lost a soul?
Don't really like what im feeling now. But who can help it?
Just want to sleep...
Current Mood : Empty...
Current Music : Zhang HuiMei - Ru Guo Ni Ye Ting Shuo
Monday, November 12, 2007
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Smile and everlasting Smile ^_____^
Probably its a good time to Hibernate.
Im having so much fun and happiness now. I really dun hope for any of my friends to cross the line. Too busy for anything anyway in the 1st place.
Thanks honey, for always coming to the rescue. HAHA. u noe wad i mean.
Its gonna be really hectic this week. So many projects due..
Any kind souls out there who wanna give me a hand on these lump of papers?
Weary now, still doing research.. zzzzzz..
Current Mood: Sleepy
Current Music: Classical Pieces from the movie SECRET (斗琴）
Im having so much fun and happiness now. I really dun hope for any of my friends to cross the line. Too busy for anything anyway in the 1st place.
Thanks honey, for always coming to the rescue. HAHA. u noe wad i mean.
Its gonna be really hectic this week. So many projects due..
Any kind souls out there who wanna give me a hand on these lump of papers?
Weary now, still doing research.. zzzzzz..
Current Mood: Sleepy
Current Music: Classical Pieces from the movie SECRET (斗琴）
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Too Dificult, Take me away. Will you?
Why do i always feel like running away?
Is this in me? Or am i just being skeptical abt life?
It seems I've forgotten my name, my personality. Everyday seems unreal.
Have i really walked out of myself?
BBQ was fun, at least, i enjoyed talking to the pple. Somehow i still felt very uneasy seeing him there. Didnt expect he would go.
I wonder always, if i lay low and i dont always look so jovial, would i still get the same popularity? Im tired of smiling.
Promised myself to quit smoking and guess what?
I'm puffing away like nobody's business now, chain smoking.
Sick of these thoughts. Argh. When would i have that same laughter again? That true happy me? Tired of filling up these holes, it just never seems to be filled. No matter what i do, it still feels empty.
Current Mood: Empty
Current Music: Alicia Keys - If I ain't got you
Is this in me? Or am i just being skeptical abt life?
It seems I've forgotten my name, my personality. Everyday seems unreal.
Have i really walked out of myself?
BBQ was fun, at least, i enjoyed talking to the pple. Somehow i still felt very uneasy seeing him there. Didnt expect he would go.
I wonder always, if i lay low and i dont always look so jovial, would i still get the same popularity? Im tired of smiling.
Promised myself to quit smoking and guess what?
I'm puffing away like nobody's business now, chain smoking.
Sick of these thoughts. Argh. When would i have that same laughter again? That true happy me? Tired of filling up these holes, it just never seems to be filled. No matter what i do, it still feels empty.
Current Mood: Empty
Current Music: Alicia Keys - If I ain't got you
Heart's Strength Level?
I used to hate this track...
Talked to a friend this morning and it is making wonder about many things suddenly.
Is it that I've turned cold? Have i defied my heart about how she's feeling?
Woke up just with a pondering mind and decided im gonna blog it down.
I was affected somehow last nite, or rather saturday morning when i saw him walk pass me. Couldn't decide the reason of feeling that way. If it was because of still having certain feelings for him? or Was i having pity for the relationship on how good we could possibly be, even as friends.
Shared this incident to my friend and he commented that is is definitely because i still have feelings for him. I thought a little about what he had said and i wonder if it was really that simple? Have i made it complex purposefully?
This is what he knows but i did not share with him about how i felt on another incident. I wonder if my heart had moved unknowingly for another. I described vaguely about some incidents that happened recently with 2 friends and he insist that i should find out about the answers. I chose to decline.
I'm afraid of losing these friendships now, these people who were there for me and me being there for them when we are down, being so good together. What if i lose them? I know i would definitely regret.
Is this the reason why im not reacting properly to certain actions they potrayed? It had been ringing in me since these actions started. Have i stopped feeling? or Am i just defensive now?
Cant blog further.. chain of thoughts keep breaking because my brother wants his com back..
zzz..
I should get my connectinon soon.
Current Mood: Sleepy
Current Song: Kelly Clarkson - Because of you
Talked to a friend this morning and it is making wonder about many things suddenly.
Is it that I've turned cold? Have i defied my heart about how she's feeling?
Woke up just with a pondering mind and decided im gonna blog it down.
I was affected somehow last nite, or rather saturday morning when i saw him walk pass me. Couldn't decide the reason of feeling that way. If it was because of still having certain feelings for him? or Was i having pity for the relationship on how good we could possibly be, even as friends.
Shared this incident to my friend and he commented that is is definitely because i still have feelings for him. I thought a little about what he had said and i wonder if it was really that simple? Have i made it complex purposefully?
This is what he knows but i did not share with him about how i felt on another incident. I wonder if my heart had moved unknowingly for another. I described vaguely about some incidents that happened recently with 2 friends and he insist that i should find out about the answers. I chose to decline.
I'm afraid of losing these friendships now, these people who were there for me and me being there for them when we are down, being so good together. What if i lose them? I know i would definitely regret.
Is this the reason why im not reacting properly to certain actions they potrayed? It had been ringing in me since these actions started. Have i stopped feeling? or Am i just defensive now?
Cant blog further.. chain of thoughts keep breaking because my brother wants his com back..
zzz..
I should get my connectinon soon.
Current Mood: Sleepy
Current Song: Kelly Clarkson - Because of you
Sunday, October 14, 2007
Hectic week it is, but ever fufilling =) Long time since the last time i stepped into a pub with the identity of waitress. It was fun, hee.. at least i had fun.
I think the only place that i can enjoy work would be in a pub. The no limitations to alcohol, people meeting, talking and playing. This is just so me. HAHA
Wonderful weekend with a mini gathering with my already ex-colleagues.. really "she bu de" them.. how i wish i can have them and the same pay amt the next company gonna offer me.
Had a silly nightmare, probably due to over thinking.
In dream: Ex boss went to my new company and made a big hoo haa of my pay as the increment is more then 20% and tried ways and means to get me out of the new company, devastated, i was crying ;'(
Told jeremy over dinner, he just laffed over it. Hee.. guess i didnt really express my fears ya?
First day at work at Club Xin, appreciate the friends who came. Although a mini disaster happened that got me so awake when i thought i was going to concuss anytime, it is still fun =)
Hopefully Ms Joey is all good now. Thank Gawd i never saw myself in this manner when i was drunk and hope she is all ok and forgotten the issue too.
Pleasant surprise to see 2 of my long lost friends. Can't stop smiling thinking of them, just very paiseh that i didnt recognize them 1st. HAHA. Guess im really the only one who has never changed ya?
...
I wonder how is Honey feeling now? It must have been a ultimate tiring week for him, though i am wondering hard abt the ever occupying activities, at the same time i just hope i am thinking too much.. Please be well ok?
Some silly pictures here, haha. Gonna get real busy soon. Cheers to me?
Me & Jazz
Mini Gathering with colleagues
Long Lost Adeline & Boyfriend
Honey & capricorn Friend.. Forgot her Name.. HEHE
Care bEar Me & Honey
Adeline & Me
::winks::
^.*
Current Music: 张敬轩-电影(十分爱)钢琴曲
Current Mood: Cheerful ^_^
I think the only place that i can enjoy work would be in a pub. The no limitations to alcohol, people meeting, talking and playing. This is just so me. HAHA
Wonderful weekend with a mini gathering with my already ex-colleagues.. really "she bu de" them.. how i wish i can have them and the same pay amt the next company gonna offer me.
Had a silly nightmare, probably due to over thinking.
In dream: Ex boss went to my new company and made a big hoo haa of my pay as the increment is more then 20% and tried ways and means to get me out of the new company, devastated, i was crying ;'(
Told jeremy over dinner, he just laffed over it. Hee.. guess i didnt really express my fears ya?
First day at work at Club Xin, appreciate the friends who came. Although a mini disaster happened that got me so awake when i thought i was going to concuss anytime, it is still fun =)
Hopefully Ms Joey is all good now. Thank Gawd i never saw myself in this manner when i was drunk and hope she is all ok and forgotten the issue too.
Pleasant surprise to see 2 of my long lost friends. Can't stop smiling thinking of them, just very paiseh that i didnt recognize them 1st. HAHA. Guess im really the only one who has never changed ya?
...
I wonder how is Honey feeling now? It must have been a ultimate tiring week for him, though i am wondering hard abt the ever occupying activities, at the same time i just hope i am thinking too much.. Please be well ok?
Some silly pictures here, haha. Gonna get real busy soon. Cheers to me?
Me & Jazz
Mini Gathering with colleagues
Long Lost Adeline & Boyfriend
Honey & capricorn Friend.. Forgot her Name.. HEHE
Care bEar Me & Honey
Adeline & Me
::winks::
^.*
Current Music: 张敬轩-电影(十分爱)钢琴曲
Current Mood: Cheerful ^_^
Tuesday, October 9, 2007
HAH CHOOOOOOOOoooo !
OOOOOOooo..
lately i like to stay at home. haha i dunno y :P
maybe it's due to laziness?
im stuck to my room. heee.. my piano could be the culprit.
thank god i still haven't got my own connection to the internet,
otherwise imagine it (i should be found hidden in the tiny corner watching serials every hour)
WOOOHOOO ~! just finished Sanrio Pasta << 微笑pasta >> =)
how i wish i am 晓诗 ... have a somebody like 何群 everyday little fights still happy inside the heart.. those sweet sweet feeling... miss that so much..
Will anyone ever be too old for that?
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Drowsy today.. T_T, i think its because of my Runny Nose.. =/ i think my poor nose is peeling already.. *sobsob* Doctors anywhere?
2000mg of Vitamin C today plus extravagant intake of H2O~~
"May thy nose be non-watery tomorrow"
Off to enjoy the internet connection while my bro is out. KEKEKE
laters all =D
---> any kind souls?
Current Mood: Sneezy
Current Song: jacky wu & landy - rooftop (屋顶）
lately i like to stay at home. haha i dunno y :P
maybe it's due to laziness?
im stuck to my room. heee.. my piano could be the culprit.
thank god i still haven't got my own connection to the internet,
otherwise imagine it (i should be found hidden in the tiny corner watching serials every hour)
WOOOHOOO ~! just finished Sanrio Pasta << 微笑pasta >> =)
how i wish i am 晓诗 ... have a somebody like 何群 everyday little fights still happy inside the heart.. those sweet sweet feeling... miss that so much..
Will anyone ever be too old for that?
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Drowsy today.. T_T, i think its because of my Runny Nose.. =/ i think my poor nose is peeling already.. *sobsob* Doctors anywhere?
2000mg of Vitamin C today plus extravagant intake of H2O~~
"May thy nose be non-watery tomorrow"
Off to enjoy the internet connection while my bro is out. KEKEKE
laters all =D
---> any kind souls?
Current Mood: Sneezy
Current Song: jacky wu & landy - rooftop (屋顶）
Monday, October 8, 2007
北极星的眼泪
像断了线
消失人海里面
我的眼终于失去 你的脸
再等一会奢望流星会出现
愿如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天
越来越远
Chorus 1:
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱不见
再等一会奢望流星会出现
愿如果真的实现
爱能不能永远明天
或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天
越来越远
Chorus 2:
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱不见
Bridge:
当对的人等不到对的时间
就在放放开手的瞬间
爱撕成两边
Chorus 3:
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱不见
整个宇宙都流眼泪
Current Mood: Teary
Current Song: 北极星的眼泪
消失人海里面
我的眼终于失去 你的脸
再等一会奢望流星会出现
愿如果真的实现
爱能不能永远
明天或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天
越来越远
Chorus 1:
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱不见
再等一会奢望流星会出现
愿如果真的实现
爱能不能永远明天
或许来不及变
但曾经走过的昨天
越来越远
Chorus 2:
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱不见
Bridge:
当对的人等不到对的时间
就在放放开手的瞬间
爱撕成两边
Chorus 3:
北极星的眼泪
说不出的想念
原来我们活在两个世界
北极星的眼泪
你哭红的双眼
被淋湿的诺言
淹没在心里面
我抬头看着爱不见
整个宇宙都流眼泪
Current Mood: Teary
Current Song: 北极星的眼泪
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